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  • 🛧 2025-12-12 w50 Fri
    Well i made this list today! i used a template from a plain txt calendar and pasted it into a html list generator. I also worked out how to put emojis into html, you use this Hexadecimal code thing, pretty cool. Although i'm not sure if the emojis will come up for you, it depends on the browser you use, i coded this on firefox sooooo yeah. Nerdy Sexy, i know. I think i'm going to post this site either today or tommorow, maybe after YanYan lands in Malaysia.
    I also emailed TAFE today! They are finally trying to unlock my old TAFE account, hopefully it works. I can't access my old email i used to create the orginal account and i don't remember my password, yikes.
    ALSO i dusted off the typewriter today, not for anything special, i was just writing down my number into my wallet but omg typewriters are so sexy. I wish i had a passion for writing because i would hammer away entire books on a typewriter if i could.

  • 🍅 2025-12-13 w50 Sat
    Last night Luci brought fleas into my room, kms, but do not fear, i bug sprayed everything and swept.They are all gone.
    As for todays plan i'm waiting for another reply from TAFE, they said they'll send me my TAFE acc details, i'm so close brooooo.
    I'm also getting more into my typewriter much to my fathers annoyance hehe. I made a new pocket notebook and used the typewriter to slowly and loudly type out all my 3x3 cube algorithms, nerdy sexy, i know.
    ALSO i finally replaced the batteries in my POMO DORO clock, i love my POMO DORO clock so very much since how i perceive time is all fucked up, the clock i personally have is either a dretec or a copy off one, oh they are so sexy, they have different options for how loud it is, a lock, multiple different modes and a red light, amazing. I'm pretty sure the dretec pomodoro timer was orginally made for students in japan, while the word pomodoro itself is italian, it means tomato hehe, based on the tomato shaped kitchen timers.
    I CUT MY HAIR, not very well but i did, i doth like it hehe.

  • 2025-12-14 w50 Sun
    Woke up a bit later than i wanted today 7:40, i originally wanted to try waking up 7:10, why? because i wanted to clean the kitchen this morning while keeping my morning routine intact, maybe i'll write my full morning routine in a different issue hrmmmm.
    I didn't get to mop the kitchen because Dad woke up and was walking around in that area, i think if i do want to clean the kitchen in the morning i need to start waking up 6:30 so i can do my morning routine until 8am and then clean the kitchen from 8-9 before dad wakes up.
    I recorded a getting ready video of me and diabeto lol, i wanted to make it look like we both work at the Astroid Times. I'm going to triple check the site, send you that video and then finally post this site later today.
    I POSTED THE SITE, well you know that bc you're reading it, sorry it took so long hehe.
    My dads client today is the lady who said she wanted to get a hitler moustache tattooed on her finger so that if she's having a bad day she can put it over her lips....yikes.

    So i was looking into Tafe courses again while i wait, i don't think i want to do in person study, i am more open to it than i used to be for sure and the classes are far from me but kinda close to you but it would take me over an hour and a half to get to class. I was looking at Tafe digital again and i'm still on the waitlist, i wish it showed how long the waitlist is.
    BUT then i saw Tafe virtual classroom and....enrollments are open??? I could enrol right now!
    Okay the main difference is that Tafe digital is self paced and Tafe virtual is more like a class zoom call. What i've learned doing philosophy courses on my own compared to virtual tafe art courses is that i actually do work better on my own, i surprisingly get distracted less and it's just easier when i can pause a video and take notes compared to having a teacher on zoom call. So i WANT to do Tafe digital but how long will i have to wait??? how long is this invisible waitlist??? grrrrrhhh maybe i should do Tafe Virtual, idk.

  • 🗓 2025-12-15 w51:



  • 2025-12-15 w51 Mon
    Today i woke up at 7:30, i did a bit of reading, i've been struggling to get into new books since finishing "I am ledgend" but i did start reading "Secret pigeon service", "The chocolate war" and "The three elctro nights", still not really into any of them but we'll see how it goes, i'll try spending 20 minutes on each book today to test them out.
    I made a really nice breakfast today, four mini omeletes with mushroom, feta, sweet paprika and garlic mixed into them, it's really fun cooking breakfast again even if the dishes are super simple.
    While i was making breakfast i was listening to a new album called "Oaf Milk" by "Crying Loser", i don't know how to describe it, i guess it's experimental 'heavy' jazz?? Doomer jazz? I don't know, it's a bit anxiety inducing but also kinda fun???
    I MUST DO CHRISTMAS SHOPPING TODAY, i have been putting it off, pray for my bank. I also forgot about birthday gifts kms, Toby let me know that he bought me a birthday gift! oh god, idk what he likes anymore, it's been so long. The last time we hung out he loved creepy pasta and cat noir lol.
    I started rewriting my "One line a day" journal on my Canon Typestar, i'm rewriting it in more detail. Normally i dislike journaling but doing it a few days/weeks after the date actually happened is pretty fun, i'm still not an emotional writer but it's nice to have a little recap of what happened, it makes time feel like it's going slower since i'm remembering stuff in more detail. Downside is some of the keys aren't super responsive so there's a lot of words missing "H" and "J".
    There's a seven year old boy getting his hair dematted today, the boy is quiet and his mother is nice but i can see how stressed dad is getting, he feels so bad when a job takes a long time and the mother is starting to step in, constantly asking how much is left to go and she's trying to hold the sons hair near the scalp so it doesn't hurt her son, she isn't doing anything wrong but because the mother is getting all in my dads personal space, trying to get her hands in there when my dad is really gentle and holds the hair himself, it's just stressing dad. The boy has been here since 10am, it's currently 5pm but that's what happens when a kid grows their hair out down past their butt and gets it all tangled.

  • 2025-12-16 w51 Tue
    LATE UPDATE. I woke up at 7:30 today and i just wasn't feeling it, i put my usual strict routine down the toilet and decided to just cook breakfast early instead. When i walked out of my room I found Dad passed out on the couch, a glass of wine about to spill right next to him and his headphones still blasting metal music into his ears,i had to tuck him in properly, it's so idk, not annoying but dissapointing ig.
    ANYWAYS, for breakfast i cooked up some sauteed mushrooms, 2 eggs and some BACON, oh ponyo loves bacon. I watched croods one and two in the living room while trying to wake dad up, he eventually did get up at 12 and i made some lunch. There was some pork marinating for the past 12 hours in the fridge yummy yummy yummy, so i grabbed that out and fried it up only for dad to come over and....make a pizza, NO MORE PIZZA I BEG.
    I did find my old dumbbells today and tried to do my old excercise routine.....i did not finish it, that's for sure. Now it's afternoon, i'm gonna head to Aunty Jans to have dinner with her and mum, pray for me and pray for them too, i think my period is coming so they better hope i don't get pissy or i'll be aiming for the jugular lol

  • 2025-12-17 w51 Wed
    HELLO, today i got up at 7:20, i made two fried eggs with crispy chorizo and a yummy salad on the side. I had to mop the floor again this morning, idk how it gets so nasty in 12 hours.
    My dads client today is a lovely man named Mowie, he's so chill and sweet, he comes over every 3ish months and has been seeing my dad for at least two years.
    OH MY ARMS ARE SO SORE, yesterday was the first day i haven't properly stretched in the morning for ages and yesterday just so happened to be the day i found my dumbbells, oh my arms cry out and sob lmao.
    I took my typewriter apart for the first time today, it's actually really clean inside the typewriter. I cut up some cardboard and slotted it onto some spaces inside the typewritter to try and dull the lound clanking a bit more but what i really need to do is replace the felt behind the keys. Anyways, at least i know how to take my typewritter apart now.
    I uhmmmmm i enrolled into the Ultimo Tafe course, ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck hehe

  • 2025-12-18 w51 Thu
    GOOD MORNING BALTIMORE, today i woke up at 6:50 for some reason?? i think i was having nightmares all throughout last night, i kept waking up and getting out of bed which is odd.
    For breakfast today i did fried rice with three eggs, some pork and loads of chilli oil, yummy yummy yummy. With breakfast i watched a good video on how to find music in the age of algorithms. The video makes me want to dive into music labels more, like how cool and nerdy would i be if i could rock up and say "Yeah hubro is my favourite music label, they specialise in Norwegian jazz".
    Not doing much today, mums gonna come over to drop off ingredients for my salad and i'm mostly gonna be chilling in my room because IT'S GONNA BE NEAR 40 DEGREES TODAY FML

  • 2025-12-19 w51 Fri
    Today i woke up around 7:30, i made fried rice for breakfast, oh i made dads plate look real fancy so he had to eat it (he always refuses to have breakfast).
    The aircon got put in today and oh praise the lordddddddd, oh it's so nice in here!!!
    I spent around 40mins rewriting my journal on my CANON TYPESTAR 6 hehe and i had a telehealth appointment, it was chill, really quick. I got given 3 months worth of repeats on my dex :)
    idk what i'll do for the rest of the day, probably code for a bit, catch up on some reading, maybe do some arts and crafts.

  • 2025-12-20 w51 Sat
    I was sitting in front of the aircon this morning, i sat on the couch, leaned my head back and closed my eyes. I don't have too many memories of aircons, my school didn't have any, we didn't even have fans, i had an aircon at my mums but was never allowed to turn it on. Because of this i was able to sift through memories of when i was cold.
    memories flashed into my mind of sneaking into the out of bounds area in an indoor playground and hiding under a slide where the floor was chilly. Little me walking into the fridge room in a bottle-o for the first time.
    Me in highschool giving away my jumper and jacket to someone who was cold, it was the dead of winter and raining, i ended up getting a cold for two months.
    The time i was left home alone as a child (around maybe 6 years old), i hadn't been taught any lift skills so i didn't know how to make dinner and so i ran up to my room only to find that my bed had been stripped of it's sheets, i had no idea what to do. After a while i remember setting up a row of plushies either side where i would sleep, i laid down in the middle and slowly piled plushies over me as a makeshift blanket, i shivered the cold night away under the plushie pile.
    The memory i was most reminded of was me at my aunty mamis house, we're in the living room and all the lights are off, the coffee table in front of the couch is covered in random papers, remotes and trash that falls down onto the floor, in the center of the table is a glass bowl of hershey kisses. I remember being so cold, aunty mami had fallen asleep on the couch with me and left the aircon on, i wanted the blanket but she was hogging it in her sleep hehe, so i sat there shakily reaching out to eat chocolate after chocolate while watching filo news programs, terrified that any small move would wake aunty mami. :)

    I hung out with Ashmita from 1pm till like 7pm, we had such a good time, nothing has changed at all, god she has a good laugh, it's so loud and expressive. Ashmita has grown up dude, shes 22 now, she works in the Climate change department of the government which is so so cool. I finally got to hear about what she thinks about her mother after years of only hearing my mothers side.

  • 2025-12-21 w51 Sun
    OHHHH period got me lazy. I woke up at 8am today, i didn't make breakfast but oh my love got me flowers, i love my wife. Last night i was thinking about fun ways we could decorate our space when i stay over more next year. I was wondering if my wife would like my world globe lamp, it reminds me of the one in rocky horror, i was wondering if they would want to have this kitty cat artwork my aunty ness used to own and if i should find my extra vinyl player. I shouldn't get ahead of myself, we don't even know where we'll be staying yet but oh it's so much fun to think about how we'll turn a small little space into our own.

  • 🗓 2025-12-22 w52:



  • 2025-12-22 w52 Mon
    Today i woke up feeling trashhhh, i haven't got cramps but i'm feeling so fatigued and bummy. I talked to my dads client this morning, super sweet guy, tried to ask me loads of questions which was nice, a lot of clients sort of ignore me which is fine. This dude had really cool beliefs, he's very into political stuff but was talking about how hard it is to get unbiased information on stuff which is so real. Later in the day i went to Milos birthday, it was smaller than i imagined, only two other people apart from bre and milo. Milo gives great hugs man and he always seems so happy to see me. We had lunch at a japanese place right outside kinokunya, everything reminded me of you. After lunch me and bre went to pick up from her dealer in that spot outside townhall church where we spent our last hour just chatting before you had to go. Bre's dealer is so cute and also gave me a nice hug.
    Bre and i found this lady doing live painted portraits so we stayed for that and got a painting before going off to find Milo and his friend Red. We walked for about 25 minutes through the city, had a nice talk, i didn't realise how badly i missed bre until i saw her. We found Red and Milo on some steps, we talked about DnD, they're inviting me to join their current game, i'm a bit scared but also DnD siunds really fun.
    Sadly that's all the hanging out i could do, it was already 6pm so i split ways with them and headed home.
    I was very sleep when i got back but dad insisted i have a beer, so i had a beer then headed to my room.

  • 2025-12-23 w52 Tue
    It feels so hot todayyyyy. Woke up late today 8:30, not my best time, i stayed up late last night. I didn't do morning routine stuff, i just had some cereal and chilled for a while.
    Luci knocked over a glass of water in my room and i didn't notice for ages, now my wooden sidetable has a stain on it lol.
    Me and dad went to the shops to put some money in the bank, while at the bank me and dad were disscussing the book i'm reading, i guessour conversation was pretty passionate and loud because the man standing in front of us kept turning around with such a cute smile, he looked so happy to either see the book ro just me and my dad talking about books. I picked up some stationary from a dollar store and bought some picture frames for future presents for milo and em. I then went to this anime type store and got mum and bre presents which is a load off my mind.
    After the shops we went to GoodLuck, picked up some food and headed home to eat it while watching "man on the inside", that show is so cute, currently the main guy and falling for another lady, the best part is they are a married couple in real life, they have been married for like 30 years.
    Anyway i just finished recording some silly rubix cube videos for you, idk what to do now, it's so hot i just wanna lay down and be a bum.

  • 2025-12-24 w52 Wed
    Last night i did not end up being a total bum, i read for an hour straight and i made a book cover for my tafe notebook.
    This morning i got up 7:30, oh we're getting back on track, i did end up slipping up and watched a reel or two but overall better. I made breakfast with too much chilli this morning, you already know the reason why hehe.
    My dad has a client today that isn't very talkative so i'm gonna stay in my room. I've been reading this morning and did some workouts for the first time since starting my period, i have to say two days off really does make a difference. Anyway right now i'm gonna check my email, do half an hour of sql recap and make an Anki deck for the dewey decimal system. Later i have to pick an outfit for christmas dinner, i was thinking green and red but Mother has never done a green and red christmas, she prefers navy blue of dark purple, real happy colours lol.

  • 2025-12-25 w52 Thu
    Aye Christmas day. I got up early, showered and made breakfast. Breakfast this morning was two fried eggs, bacon and mushroom, all the things a growing boy needs.
    Dad woke up later than i, groaning and complaining, he asked me if i could hear him talking last night. I'm glad i was asleep because apparently he was very drunk and talking outloud about "the state of the world", yikes.
    We did finally get around to opening presents, nana and grandad got me some great stuff. Aunty Ness got me and dad t-shirts and Dad got me the 2nd book of the pluto manga and knee high socks. I got Dad the Nausicaa manga set hardcover.
    After that i tried to get my Dad to call his parents to say thank you....three hours, three hours before he told me to call them myself while he avoided the call so that, and i quote "don't have to be the son i'm supposed to be". Yeah yikes, anyway i talked to Nana and grandad, it was great, they are so happy i'm enrolled into tafe and they thought it was cute that you saw the welsh dragon and thought of them, it made nana giggle.
    I also texted Aunty Ness and asked if she would want to go to port during january the same time as me so we can see eachother.
    Later in the day i worked on posters for Milo, Em and Toby. For milo i was editing the map from the game bully so he can put it up in his room. For Em i edited one of his album covers to be a nice poster and for Toby i'm drawing pictures of my OC Tobias who is actually inspired by Toby + Toby got his name from my OC (little does he know i got the name Tobias from Astroboy's character Tobio hehe)
    In the late afternoon i went for Christmas dinner at Aunty Jans, it was kinda sweet, kinda upsetting but overall not bad. The dinner ran pretty late and present opening was later still. Aunty Jan gave me a set of white cups and graeme got me coffee. Mum felt bad when i was about to leave (bc she didn't give me anything during the present opening), she raced home and gave me some knock off sony angel figures, saying they are for you and me but girl i know she got it for herself, she had already opened them lol. She did also get us jewelry cha ching.

  • 2025-12-26 w52 Fri
    Helloooooo, today i woke up at 5am to Luci meowing on my bed, it was so strange, he curled up next to me, put his head on my arm and slept with me like Marla used to. I tried to record a video but ended up sobbing on the video lol. Oh i miss marla so much, i was thinking about her all day today, especially while i was stretching. When i used to do morning stretching in my room Marla would sit on the edge of the bed and watch me, meowing like she was confused. When i would try to touch my toes she would climb onto my back. When i would do sitting stretches she would crawl into my lap.
    Today i recorded a vlog for you, it was very fun, for someone who hates being on camera i like recording little vlog videos. Anyway, i was supposed to go out with Em but he cancelled because of work, poor dude working on a publc holiday and tommorow on his birthday :(
    I finished reading Z for Zachariah, it was like a 5/10 but you already heard my review hehe.

  • 2025-12-27 w52 Sat
    Tried to record a morning routine yesterday but woke up a bit late. Had a chill day, you already know all about it, did come coding, reading, rubix cubing and then mum came over for lunch, that was interesting. Also watched my dad tear up over messages from chat gpt, oh lord help me.

  • 2025-12-28 w52 Sun
    Today i woke up 7:30, feed luci, had my tea outside and did some excercise. Mum called for like an hour, talking about my highschool days and about how i shoulld worry your family might 'make me disappear' lol, dw about what she says, she's just crazy. OHH father came into my room talking about how he has been doing "research" (msging chat gpt) and he has been having good coversations, he has been talking to that clanker for the past two hours, i'm actually starting to worry. All the horrible climate stuff aside chat gpt can cause psychosis which is so dangerous for a dude who already has schizophrenia, like girl plssssss.

  • 🗓 2025-12-29 w01:


  • 2025-12-29 w01 Mon
    Finished reading Carmilla, oh gay gay.

  • 2025-12-30 w01 Tue
    Went to centerlink with dad

  • 2025-12-31 w01 Wed
    went to office works to print posters and bought sexy stationary
    Last Day of the year, was mostly cleaning my room and working on Milos paper doll present, it's silly but i really like how he turned out. I went outside at night to go watch some fireworks, i was feeling super shit, idk if it's just because it's new years or if being at home is really getting to me.
    Listened to jeff buckley while drinking outside and talking to stray cats

  • 2026-01-01 w01 Thu
    New year!!!
    We had a nice videocall, oh i miss you so much
    Talked to mum and recorded a vlog of me doing my cleaning and workouts.
    Bought THREE new yarts
    Had dinner at mums and found a broken jesus statue out the front of her place
    Worked on Em's present and went to bed way too late.

  • 2026-01-02 w01 Fri
    Surprisingly got up at 7:30, made toad in a hole for breakfast, did some coding, mopped the bathroom and checked my email meow. Gonna get everything ready for toby tmr.
    Did alot of SQL today and finished glueing Em's present!!
    I started writing your letter on the typewriter

  • 2026-01-03 w01 Sat
    Woke up and wasted an hour on reels, yikes. I showered, made breakfast and continued writing your letter. I have to draft it on paper since my dad has a client so i can't use the typewriter.
    I picked toby up from the airport, oh why is it so expensive to go to the airport?? The train was 20 bucks each way, oh death.
    Me and toby sat outside townhall and talked for a while, he asked to do acid tabs with me but like i don't really wanna do that with someone i don't hang out with regularly.
    Took toby back to the airbnb and he said he'd text when he wanted to be picked up for dinner, oh he texted at ten pm.
    I wentover to toby's but on the way there the uber driver was asking really personal questions on how it feels when i kiss boys ohhhhhh.
    Slept at toby's place, it was alright.

  • 2026-01-04 w01 Sun
    Toby came over this morning, i don't know what he wants to do today, we can't go to the city early bc we're heading to the musical with dad later tonight. I thought it would be okay to hang out in my room all day but toby seemed so bored but also didn't start any conversations, like bro pls. I let him play his music on my speaker for a couple hours before switching to my music OH when i did he walked out of the room, idk if it's all in my head, it probably is, oh i just get so anxious when around ppl who don't say what they're feeling.
    We went to the musical later in the day, it was visually the best musical i've ever seen... music on the other hand wasn't bad but it didn't make me feel anything. Oh the incest song was funny tho.

  • 🗓 2025-12-29 w02:


  • 2026-01-05 w02 Mon (Birthday) lowkey me whining abt toby, i feel like a rat for writting this, you can skip over


    I didn't mean to write this much but when i started it turns out i was more pissy than i thought and rambled through the keyboard.

    Woke up 10am and opened my birthday presents from nana and grandad, oh they got me like six vinyls, they r so sweet. Dad got me an astroboy notebook, astroboy can never go wrong.
    Me and toby went to the city, i took him to regent place for gacha, through chinatown, korean corndogs, kinokuniya, to newtown, vinyl store, poster store, marys burgers, jazz bar, chinese noodle place.

    Oh idk, is it shitty to say i kinda wanted Toby to shout me something? I was totally fine shouting a few things, it's his birthday but bro never offered to get me anything.
    I got us 100 bucks worth of drinks, 8 gacha tokens and i was buying myself a few things too.
    When at resurants he would tell me what he wants, so naturally i would go up to the counter and order and he would stay at the table, so automatically i would have to pay.
    The only time he mentioned money was after i bought us drinks, he waited for me to get back with the drinks and then said "you don't have to pay for me"
    like bro you coulda said that before i paid, anyway i was fine, i said
    "Bro it's your birthday, you can shout the next round of drinks". Well we finished our drinks and sat there....he never offered to get another round of drinks so hrm.
    The only thing he offered to pay for during his stay was my uber drive over to his place when i very obviously wanted to go to bed

    Look i got along with toby but also it was so hard to read that man. (mostly bc we havn't hung out in 8 years)
    he says he wants korean corndogs, i take him to the place, he buys one, i ask if he likes it and he says "Well it's a mozzarella stick".
    we got to the jazz bar, he doesn't mention if he liked the vibe or anything, he just sat down and went on his phone. i got him a drink, asked if it was good, his reply was a shrug and "It's alright".
    the live music starts, i'm bopping on the couch, i turn to him and hes sitting absolutly still, i ask if he likes the music or if it's not his style, his reply "They're okay" in a monotone voice.
    we get out of the jazz bar, i ask if he wants to eat "I guess i could",
    it gets late, i ask if he wants me to sleepover "You can". LIKE BRO DO YOU LIKE OR DISLIKE ANYTHING???


    Imma be honest, the whole thing felt like babysitting someone, he never knew what he wanted to do, he would say "I just want to do something instead of sitting in your room" but once we were out he'd be all "All we do is walk". like yeah, walking is the way to get places. i did try to talk to him and said "Hey man, i know you're chill but can you give me some indication when you do wanna do something? Because i don't know how to read your body language yet" he just replied with "Yeah true" OHHHHHHHHH

    OKAY FINAL THING I PROMISE, idk if this part is me reading into things way too much bc i was already anxious.
    the night i was sleeping over i was sitting on the couch doing nothing while he was on his phone and i said "Oh can i have a minute? It's me and my girlfriends 3 months tmr and i wanna edit this video really quick, sorry" and he joked "Oh just rub it in".
    i gave an awkward chuckle and apoligised and then he went on his phone again.
    And like whenever i would bring you up he wouldn't ever smile or ask about you, okay fair, not a big talker, whatever. I would ask about his dating life and ex's and he would get excited to tell me, i would get excited to hear, i'd go to also say my stuff and tumbleweeds. I literally saw this man give an annoyed sigh when i tapped a reply on my bracelet. Look i get it, i felt a similar way when i first saw bre in a happy relationship, a little butthurt but can he at least pretend to be interested in the love of my life??
    i promise i wasn't rambling about you alot (as much as i wanted to) but he still seemed so annoyed when i brought up my relationship.

    That attitude mixed with some other stuff made me feel really strange, all the parts on their own are fine but lemme list off some stuff real quick.
    he would only sing 'interesting' lyrics to me during songs. example: He grabbed my shoulder during dammit jannet rocky horror and whispered the line "i love you" into my ear from the backseat of the car and he would make random sex jokes between us like when i asked what he wanted to do he replied "mutal masterbation, i want to jerk you off".
    God knows i love a good immature sex joke, these types of jokes are weakshit, they never make me feel weird, i am a little boy at heart.
    Me and bre constantly joke about being all over eachother and much much worse things than toby did but it's different, bre wants to hear about you and see everything we've been doing, i always say "Sorry but can i talk about chloe again" and bre seems ecstatic to hear abt it and would tell me to stop saying sorry.
    When toby seems more than disinterested in my relationship and then makes sex jokes and spicy comments, it made me feel so weird. ALSO after i said i didn't want to sleepover he said "i can sleep at your house" and i told him the spare room wasn't clear, he then went "Thats fine, i can sleep in your room with you" in a very casual non joking way. This was after he saw how small my bed was. oh no thank you.

    Anyway i know most of it is me overthinking and being pissy because i'm socially drained.
    Here's my argument for Toby's side: He didn't offer to buy anything bc plane plus airbnb was already expensive.
    He never told me what he wanted to do simply because he didn't know himself
    He seemed uninterested and quiet to me maybe bc he's just like that all the time
    He didn't seem enthusiastic over our relationship bc he went through a bad breakup around this time last year
    and he made sex jokes because i make sex jokes too and we used to make weird jokes back in year 7, he was probably just falling back on that in times of silence
    See??? everything can be simply explained, i was just being a baby.

  • 2026-01-06 w02 Tue
    Oh ignore my last entry, i was still pretty pissy, idk what was up with toby but yaknow it's whatever, i'll stay in contact with him and try again in a few months. Oh i'm so zen monk.
    I texted a member of the socialist group today, god she replies fast, she saw my msg as soon as it sent, oh they want me so badly.
    I'm thinking of attending their disscussion group on monday night, get a feel for it, see if i like them or if they're too intense. I get what people mean when they say this group is culty, they seem so desperate to recruit new members but also they are fighting for a good cause so why not.
    I started a new SQL course today, finished the first two twice now bc i forgot everything, i went onto a third course and now i'm on my fourth, even this deep SQL is boring as ballz.

  • 2026-01-07 w02 Wed
    I think i had a dream that i was a communist?? well anyway i woke up 7am today and i'm trying to get back on track with everything, i let go of all of my habits while toby was here.
    I watched Tommy the musical and OH it was such a breath of fresh air, it was sooooooo unapoligetically artistic, they didn't make everything pretty, the voices weren't autotuned to all hell and NO CGI omg, there was this scene with a crowd moving through a field of giant pinballs, pinball machines in the center and then everything caught on fire, the actor had to rush through with fire all around him, it didn't look as 'good' as it would have if they used CGI but everything was real, i creamed. (when i say good i mean that the giant pinballs didn't look like real giant pinballs and they could've with CGI. These pinballs weren't super shiny, they had handles on them probably from where they had to move the props with a crane but doesn't that make it better? it doesn't break the immersion, it just makes you realise how much effort had to go into these scenes)

  • 2026-01-08 w02 Thu
    Oh it's so hot today. I woke up at 8 meh, i wanted to wake up 7am again. I'm supposed to work out today but i'm boiling alive, the temp jumped from 31 to 41 in the span of two hours or sumthing ridiculous like that. Found bookworms in my penguin books and had to bag the whole collection, i hope that will be enough.

  • 2026-01-09 w02 Fri
    Woke up 9am today and had a 40 min phonecall with mother, she was telling me about how she nearly passed out from the heat yesterday. I also had a nightmare that bookworms infested all my books and a lovely dream that someone sent 800K to my bank account lol.

  • 2026-01-10 w02 Sat
    I woke up 8am today, i want to try and read lots and lots today, try and tire my brain out so brainrot is less appealing (plot twist it didn't work)

  • 2026-01-11 w02 Sun
    Finally got dad to print his bank statements today, it has been three weeks since he orginally got told to do so. Mum had to fully yell at him and then me and her had to physically push him off the couch

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    I had a videocall with you this morning, oh you make me giggle. I went to the socialist group at 6pm, ended up staying an extra 40mins just chatting with everyone, it was so sick but also they are all such busy bees, i'm scared. They invited me to the summer school and to do stalls with them, like guys i'm new but also it's peer pressure into making me extra cool, who am i to complain, socialism is sexy. OH turn that into a shirt right now

  • 2026-01-13 w03 Tue
    Woke up 9am and had a chill morning, i'm beating myself up over it but also my morning was nice so i shouldn't be mad about it. Mum is coming over for lunch and then Ems coming in the later afternoon.
    Em came over 6:20, it was really nice, he gifted me some cassette tapes and i gave him a cassette player and the poster i made him, he seemed to really like it.

  • 2026-01-14 w03 Wed
    Dad got centerlink this morning but the payment is kind of trash and he has been complaining nonstop. Angel came over later and we talked about her ex and how he's getting karma hehe

  • 2026-01-15 w03 Thu
    Went out with bre and milo. The day started with dad being a bummer, complaining he hasn't been getting any work but bro your site went down and you havn't put it back up. My day with bre and milo was nice, we had lunch out, i gave them both their gifts and we went to a thrift store. Fav part of the day was when me and bre just sat and talked for an hour.

  • 2026-01-16 w03 Fri
    Had a lazy day. Dad did a job interview but didn't take the job cause it pays 28 bucks per hour. Dad didn't take my advice on trades and lost 270 bucks, oh if he listened he would have made 270, this shit tempts me to trade just to spite him. I also changed my laptop battery today, oh i love you thinkpad, i love how they make it so easy to swap out parts. This laptop if old as fuck but it still runs like a charm considering the age.

  • 2026-01-17 w03 Sat
    Trackwork and rain oh god. Went to the summer school. God it was so windy when i got to the city i actually saw people hugging lamp posts just so they wouldn't fall over. Oh the day was long and draining and i didn't get to eat. The talks were so good but i was so grumpy by the end of it.

  • 2026-01-18 w03 Sun
    chill day, read for two hours, not much else

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  • 2026-01-19 w04 Mon
    Bought a new gift for nana and got the train tickets for later this month meow. OHHHH i went to another socialist group thing, idk how much longer i can keep this up, like it's so good learning more but oh it's so social and because i don't know anything about politics i can't just chat with them like they chat with eachother, everything turns into "oh AL have you heard of this?" i shake my head and then they have to explain before continuing. Once i know more it will be less draining.

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